Monday, November 10, 2008

Heart broken

To answer the question;Did you unpack?,my answer is Yes.But unfortunatelly not for long...

As i told here before,C and i were going to try to make our relationship work again.He has been telling me over and over for months now that he wanted to be with his family,and was willing to fight hard for it.He told me his love for me wasn't the same because i had been away for so long,but he was sure it would become the same when we would live together.Saturday i moved into our old place again where we would wait for a place in Amsterdam.But somehow it was not "meant to be".Three day's after moving in,C told me this was not ging to work.We were too different and he doesn't love me the same way as he did before.He loved someone else.There went my future!Ofcourse i was heart broken,sad,angry and lot's more.I have to start all over AGAIN.Looking for a place to live,school for my children,and money to survive.I can stay in our old place untill i find something else.C is moving out at the end of the month.It's all so unreal,i still can't believe it!

I don't feel like scrapbooking and blogging at the moment,and i can't tell when i will be back...
Love Fauve

47 comments:

~Nancy~ said...

OMG sweetie... I just don't know what to say... Sending you biiig hugs in this difficult time...Life can be so unfair sometimes.. XOXO Nancy

Mireille said...

gosh sweetheart... unbelievable! Simply have no words for this..
big big big hugs to you!!

Leah said...

Oh Fauve I'm so so sorry! I'm thinking about you and sending big hugs from here.

HARTENKERSJE said...

O..that's hard to believe this. I like to give you a big power to be strong in this very difficult time.
and a big hug from me.

Augusti_73 said...

Hugs!

inara said...

I'm sorry...having a broken heart is one of the hardest things in life...I feel your pain. this too shall pass...

Sharmaine said...

Fauve, HUGS!
Thinking of you :)

Charin said...

Oh no...I'm so sorry!! :(
I know this probably won't make you feel any better, but I know that you're a very strong woman and you *will* be just fine, you really will!
Hugs!
Charin

M@rtine said...

OOO Honey!!!! This is hard! I wished so hard for you, and was soo happy for you!.. Big hug!!
Martine

Astrid said...

Wish you all the best, in this difficult time! Hugs

Anonymous said...

wil eigenlijk even vloeken hier voor je. Sterkte meid in de komende tijd. mail me als ik iets voor je kan doen of als je even je hart wilt luchten, love ya!

corinnexxx

Chantal said...

jeetje wat een toestand allemaal zeg....

Ik hoop dat je snel wat kan vinden voor jou en je knulletjes.

Heel veel sterkte

Rianne*Z said...

Oh meid ik heb er geen woorden voor.... Heel veel sterkte voor jou en je 2 knullen!!

Dikke knuffels vanuit Groningen!!!

Danielle Muit said...

Wat heftig allemaal!! Kan je alleen maar laten weten dat ik aan je denk, samen met heel veel anderen, en ik hoop dat er snel betere tijden voor je zullen komen. Heel veel sterkte!!
Knuffel, Danielle

Natasja said...

lots and lots of strength girl! You will survive you are one strong lady.

Hugs,
Natasja

D@nielle said...

that new su.... you must be so disappointed. Big hug !

Funky Finds said...

I am so, so sorry.

Daffie Online said...

What the f*ck!!!
Is this guy out of his mind?

Lots of love and strength!

Miranda said...

Ook een hele dikke knuffel van mij meid... Wat erg zeg...

I am... said...

sweetheart, sending you hugs, and hoping things get better for you.
if you need to chat you know my email.
xx

M@risk@ said...

So sorry to read this and all I can say is wishing you a lot of strenght and take care.

Jill Deiling said...

oh goodness fauve, i am soo sorry!! :( I will be praying for you, you are too sweet of a person to have to go through something like this! good luck with everything!

Donna. said...

So sorry to hear about this. Big hugs and prayers for you and your boys.

Nat said...

I'm so sorry to hear this. I'm sending you big hugs!

eef said...

hi fauve, sorry to hear this. Wish you lots of strenght! Big HUG eef

Michelle said...

I'm so sorry that you had to go through such a tough time again. If you ever need to talk, please know that I am here for you. Lots of hugs!

linda loe said...

ohh meisje toch wat erg ik zal voor je duimen dat je je leven weer snel op de rails hebt. Dit is echt heel erg en hoe kan hij dat nu toch doen... Nou een mens is niet altijd te begrijpen maar de kinderen en jij zijn er de dupe van.
Ik wens je heel veel sterkte toe

Mexx said...

hi sweatheart, i wish you all the strenght and power you need in this time, and hope that you find a wonderful place were all you little dreams come true because you can use a lot of love and luck love you and take good care of yourself and your lovely kids...i am with you in my thoughts hang in there loves karin

MandyKay said...

oh fauve! i am so sorry to hear that you and your boys are going through such a hard time. so sad.
lots of hugs and love!

Deanna said...

take the time you need for your heart to heal. somtimes things just don't work out no matter how badly you want them too. I understand this concept all too well. I thought I was going to die. literally die whe my husband left...yet here I am, a year later, happier than I ever could have imagined. I know it's hard to see now, but you will get through this. you have a huge support system and loads of people who care about you, even if some of us are on the other side of the world. hang in there fauve. you will make it. you have two absolutely gorgeous baby boys that need their mother to hold them and love them right now. you are a strong woman. this will not break you, I promise. I will be thinking of you often. please let me know if there is anything that I can do for you! take care, deanna

merryheart2 said...

Fauve
so sorry to hear you are going thru this again.
you are such a strong woman. i admire your courage and strength.

Heather said...

hugs for you! i hope your heart heals quickly! we miss your lovely paper designs!

Penny said...

Sorry for the pain your in now. The Lord has a plan for us! You will not be sad for long because you are strong!

Hugs!

shaina said...

lots of love and hugs during this difficult time. but please don't stop blogging and scrapbooking...i promise it will help you through.
remember that you SISters love you lots!! <3

Traci Keriazakos said...

Oh honey! You are so beautiful and talented and have many many friends. I think it is his loss! Move on and be strong. I know you have it in you to create a new life. The world is your for the taking now you just have to go get the things you want!!!
tracinicole

staceyfike said...

his loss.
stay strong.
we miss you.
hugs.

Lori said...

Big hugs to you!!!!

Hang in there, we SISters are always here for you!!!

xoxo

angela said...

so sorry you are having a tough time - boo. i will keep you in my thought and prayers, SISter:)

*kim* said...

I'm so sorry for your pain & pray for this to all get better soon.
Keep your head up and love for your children in your heart.

jenniferp said...

oh my.
girl, im soooo sorry.
i know all too well the pain you are feeling.
not exactly.
but similar.
its tough.
its ok to be angry. and sad.
please know that if you EVER want to talk,
please,
reach out.
im here.
you have tons of girls that love you!!!
we are ALL here for you!!!
hugs sweet, sweet girl.
jenniferp. :)
xoxox.

Je@net said...

Ach meissie toch, weet ff niet wat ik moet zeggen! Wens je in elk geval heeeeel veel sterkte met alles!!
Liefs, Je@net.

jerseytjej said...

Girl, hold on and do what you need to do. We are here for you.

Barbar@ said...

Jeetje zeg Fauve, dat is ff niet te vatten natuurlijk. Veel sterkte meid. En samen met je kids zal het zekr goed komen hoor. Je zit nu in ieder geval weer lekker in Amsterdam. En van daaruit zal het zeker lukken. Kop op meid.

Thinkie said...

Oh no that sucks :-/ couldn't he have known up front? At least now you're sure where you stand on this relationship, hopefully this will help you to move on and start building up a new life that I'm sure will turn out great! I wish you lots and lots of strenght for the time that you need to get in that place!

**SCRAP-GEK** said...

ooooh jeetje...wat erg Fauve! ik wil je de komende tijd heel veel sterkte wensen meis..

ik denk aan je! liefs marije.

Geoff said...

Nog ff gappie.... nog ff...

Lindsay said...

So sorry, Fauve! That's awful, but you know, here's to you and your boys and the freedom to move forward. You gave it a shot, you tried your best and now you'll never have to wonder. I wish you the best of luck in your journey foreword!

Hugs,
-Lindsay